Jacque Watkins

finding grace through the mud

I Will Always Remember

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I remember the bottom, my lowest point.  

In the midst of my divorce, in my failure and shame–sitting in my car, tears flowing down, and being broken.

I remember how He met me there on that Christmas day, and how it was only when I reached the end of myself that I was able to look up and away from my own selfish and wretched heart, and up to Him, who was willing, and ready, and able, to pull me out of my muddy clay pit and rescue me from even myself.

And I remember what a long journey it has been to be set free from my own self-condemnation. I remember how God’s forgiveness was instant, yet how forgiving myself took so very long. Long because I had to really belive that His sacrifice was enough for what I’d done. That is was complete and sufficient to rescue me from my mess.

And I remember now, how being healed feels. How free I am, now that I really allowed myself to be found by His mercy. How profoundly thankful I am to have been met by His grace…and enveloped by the vastness of His love.

And I bow with profound gratitude for all He has done for me and offer my very self as a living sacrifice to be used in whatever way He would choose…

And I will always remember.

Psalm 86:5-7,10-13,15 (NASB)
5 For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive,
And abundant in lovingkindness to all who call upon You.
6 Give ear, O LORD, to my prayer;
And give heed to the voice of my supplications!
7 In the day of my trouble I shall call upon You,
For You will answer me.
10 For You are great and do wondrous deeds;
You alone are God.
11 Teach me Your way, O LORD;
I will walk in Your truth;
Unite my heart to fear Your name.
12 I will give thanks to You,
O Lord my God, with all my heart,
And will glorify Your name forever.
13 For Your lovingkindness toward me is great,
And You have delivered my soul from the depths of Sheol.
15 But You, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious,
Slow to anger and abundant in lovingkindness and truth.

 

 What are you remembering today?

What has God done for you?

I’m joining Lisa-Jo, over at her site today, to just write five minutes, without worrying  if it’s just right or not, with the prompt she gives. And today, her prompt: Remember…

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Comments

  1. Barbie says

    Oh I think you wrote this post just for me. I’ve walked with the Lord for many years, but still fall into self-condemnation. I have a hard time accepting his love, even though I believe it to be true. This really touched my heart today.

  2. Anonymous says

    Oh, friend! What a journey! It’s beautiful, raw, real, grace-filled! The best kind! The you with Him is just amazing!

  4. Anonymous says

    “How free I am, now that I really allowed myself to be found by His mercy.”

    This, Jaque. This is how I am trying to live every day. Free. He has done so much for me, and I don’t deserve it and yet he gives abundantly… I am humbled and blessed daily by his good mercy and grace for me, despite myself…. blessings, sweet friend, I love your story! xxoo

  5. Sara says

    “I remember how God’s forgiveness was instant…” How precious and beautiful is God’s promise to us that He is good, ready to forgive, and abundant in lovingkindness. Thank you for sharing this honest, beautiful testimony of His forgiveness, mercy, and grace in your life.

  6. Shelly says

    Remembering where we have been, what He has rescued us from is so good isn’t it? I had those thoughts in my post this morning. Rejoicing with you over your personal transformation, the way He has loved you into health and wholeness.

  7. Brenda says

    “I remember now, how being healed feels.” Is it not the best? Thankful new mercies are such great reminders of His steadfast love. Beautiful reflection.

  8. Jennifer Camp says

    Jacque,
    What hope your story brings! So grateful for your boldness in choosing Him — letting Him come to rescue!
    Love to you,
    Jennifer

  11. Jacque Watkins says

    Barbie, I’m so glad! A scripture that has helped me in those self-condemning moments has been 1 John 3:19-20…even when my heart condemns me, God is GREATER than my heart and knows all things…and His word says I’m amazing and He loves me. Blessings to you!

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